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how come the people you rely on always crumble right when you need them the most?
and there are a LOT of people I rely on....
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[20 Mar 2005|12:53pm] |
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all in all, last night was TOTALLY worth it
People I Need to Thank:
Ryan-Obviously
Steve
Pat
Justine
Lauren
and anyone who asked how I was feeling
and eliz....... ::wink::wink:: thank you for fulfilling my dream, which really should be your dream? I dono.. I'm just rambling now....
good times
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[18 Mar 2005|09:41pm] |
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To all my fucking friends....
I'm so tired of everyone doing JACKSHIT on the weekends. Don't you realize that after a fucking long week of learning about shit that doesnt matter, you need to go out and have fun and do SOMETHING?
Apparently certain people don't understand that concept. NO ONE does fuck's worth anymore. I'm admitting that a weekend with my friends sucks.
I'm sick of being home early. I'm sick of staying in and watching tv all night. I'm sick of excuses. here are some examples...
-I'm "sick"
-I'm tired
-I have homework... honestly, who does their fucking homework at the late hours of the night? Do it in the afternoon, or procrastinate until Sunday you pussies.
-I MIGHT get grounded
also, the fact when people are bonded together, so if one doesnt want to do something, which usually, they dont, the other one just backs off and stays in also.
and you guys do this EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND. even if we do hang out, it's always just the same four people. I want to meet some new people, and find some new things to do besides just drive around HIinsdale looking for the people that we could have hung out with, but were too much of a pushover to call.
well, if you want our relationship to continue, you're just going to have to do something, because this just isn't working out. I'm moving on. I've done it before, and I'll do it again.
and don't bring this up, because it'll just make me even more mad... and with the anger that has been building up from the past two months, man, watch out
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[14 Mar 2005|03:33pm] |
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I think I want a xanga.... yes, meaning, I want to be asian. If anyone wants to set one up for me... feel free, just tell me the passwords and shit. much love
xoxo
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[13 Mar 2005|08:04pm] |
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I want a hardcore party next weekend. Where can I find one???
Sometimes I think everyone is just falling apart.
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| PORTABLE MUSIC LIVES!!!! |
[06 Mar 2005|01:41pm] |
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I
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[01 Mar 2005|06:18pm] |
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okay, I'll keep updating as long as I don't have to read or comment on anyone else's journals.
deal?!?!
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[21 Feb 2005|09:29pm] |
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does the "it depends" mean I just might be single forever?
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[18 Feb 2005|03:49pm] |
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oh fuck you, I just updated, and it wouldnt let me post. FUCK YOU LIVE JOURNAL
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[19 Jan 2005|07:02pm] |
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OH NO! OH NO! I'm going for two entries in one week!! what now byotch?
but I actually have a story today. So me and Saiba (aka Zahna) went to Borders for a study session. And by study session I mean study for about 20 mins, and then spend the rest of the time looking at pictures of Conor, drinking coffee, and hearing stories about how she and Sammy used to light worms on fire. (you sick fuck.. haha kidding Zee, I love you)
and yes, you have a nick name FOR your nick name.
and as we walk into the lounge area at borders, this woman kept looking at me, and smiling. At first I was like, okay, creepy. But as the hour passed, there was this one completely obvious moment that she looked at me and smiled. and I didn't know what to do. I mean, what are you supposed to do when a woman in her late 30's or so gives you that I-want-to-rape-you-with-my-vibrator look??
So I just smiled back, trying so hard not to laugh, and then when she looked away, me and saiba just started cracking up.. cus she's insane. and apparently, it was the "fakest smile ever" that I gave.
It was a good day.. and most of all, I memorized more history in two hours than I thought I would. So props to me.
And pj beuke was driving behind me, just looking at me. Talk about awkward.
Keep on truckin... and maybe I'll keep on living (in live journal)
hasta luego
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[17 Jan 2005|08:15pm] |
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So sexy conor is in town. Right now. Warming up his sexy vocal cords, and I am here. "Studying" freezing my ass off, and just more confused than usual or maybe this is just what less confusion feels like.
MollyMcButter132: um.. I"m doing an lj entry
Morforshow: oh my god!
Morforshow: it's been like
Morforshow: years
True true, I havn't written in a LONG time, but I just dont have time or anythign to say. And here I am. My life story can be summed up in about 5 words
.guys.confusion.emotions.school.SUCKAGE.
the end
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[25 Oct 2004|07:18am] |
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I'm just writing to say.. I'm not dead
and to benefit elizabeths needs... here eliz this is for you:
"hello?....hello?"
"HELLO"
"UH... hi can I have a McSalad Shaker?"
"We, uh.. stopped selling those, three years ago"
"oh, okay, what salads do you have?"
"We have the Calfornia Chicken salad, Chicken Caesar Salad, Chicken Delite Salad, and the Beef Stroganov Salad"
"Oh, okay, Um, then I will just have a small fry."
I AM A VEGETARIAN FOR GODS SAKE! oh eliz, you know... you know! good times
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[28 Sep 2004|07:22am] |
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oh my god... I am SO sick of this. If it happens one more time, I really just don't know what I am going to do. (I drank bad milk last night, again!) haha
but lately things have been great. I have a had a good day, which I haven't had in a while.
Friday, went to the Homecoming carnival. Mike Parkinson's band played. they were awesome and their CD comes out in two weeks. we should all buy it.
Saturday, after practice at 6 O-FUCKING-CLOCK in the morning, I went to the parade. then to boys soccer game HOT HOT HOT . we won! obviously! 4-0. then I went to the homecoming football game versus York. We won that too!
I was not planning AT ALL to go to the homecoming dance, until 445 that night. I realized how bored I was, went to school, got a ticket, called 834920 people, dressed myself up in my 8th grade graduation dress! hardly fit! and by 6:00, I picked up Justine and went to Lauryns for pictures.
Dan's shoes had Campbell's Tomato Soup on them. They were the awesomest things ever.
The dance was fun... no, it was more than fun. And James, Eric, and Ben got us flowers... it was SO cute.
Then we went to Pudman's for ICE CREAM SUNDAYS! haha yes! so all in all.. it was an AMAZING innocent day of Hinsdale Centrals 125th anniversay's 2004 Homecoming.
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[23 Sep 2004|07:18am] |
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HOLY! new format in live journal... alright.. well. Okay
my bday is now 2 WEEKS from this Saturday. and I am NOT getting a lap top because my parents are homosexual. at least I have Microsoft word now.
This weekend is homecoming! I'm not going, cuz personally I really don't want to go. It sucks.. if I want a dance party with my friends, then I will have one with actual good music. The music they play sucks, mostly because this is Hinsdale.
BUT I AM GOING TO THE GAME!!! AND I CANNOT WAIT! ITLL BE AMAZING TIMES! hell yes.
okay, I want to say something interesting, because lately I have had nothing interesting to say. My life at the moment is dull.
haha Chelsea and Tricia, I did my spanish oral/paper on the night at the riverwalk/Steak 'n' Shake. and I showed the picture of the old person sign. That is it for now.. if you are bored with this entry, comment and tell me something interesting to keep me entertained, since not much is doing so for me now.
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okay, so last night I was thinking a LITTLE too hard for anyone to ever think that way. But since it popped into my head, I might as well share.
what if.... (oh god, I know right?)
...Everyone saw different colours. For example, what I see as black and what I call black, someone else may see as red, but they all call it black. and someone else's black would be green. And no one knows that we are all seeing different colours, but calling it "black". and we all have different perceptions but no one cares, because that is how they grew up, and they wouldnt know the difference if I see black hair on a girl, and you see green hair on a girl. but we all call it the same thing.
I hope I just confused you, because I can. and I usually do.
So that is what was going on in my head last night. CRAZY SHIT
I'd say for this weekend I am... Friday-pizza party/football game @ DGN?
Saturday- Volleyball tournament/Mr. K's bday (Chelsea, I will yell at him for you about your liscence) Abd Sunday I'll go to the mall maybe to buy some shit that I need
Won't be on cuz I don't have internet so I'll check up on Monday
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[14 Sep 2004|07:22am] |
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You want a medal for the things you've done well if you really did a damn thing we would have gave you one
Let me just say...
high school doesn't matter. I could GIVE A SHIT LESS what my "friends" at school think about me. They call me a bitch, fuck, that's their problem to deal with, not mine. because in two years I am out of here and I wont have to deal with their bullshit anymore. That's right, their bullshit.
If you don't know what I am talking about, it doesn't matter. Because I am working on this whole problem of my friends being complete bitches.
I am looking for new friends who don't make drama out of every little thing, and who don't call you a bitch, because you are reacting to the fact that they were the ones acting completely immature and selfish. And that is the shit that I am trying to get away from.
So blame me, go ahead, blame me for wanting to go somewhere in life, and do something with my time, other than wasting it with you.
P.S. My house not only is lacking Microsoft Word, but ALL FORMS of the fucking internet via AIM and MSN. I better get my laptop before my teachers assign a project that I fail.
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[09 Sep 2004|07:19am] |
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So I think for my birthday this year (one month from today!) that I am going to ask for a lap top instead of a camcorder. (Sp.) I know I really really want a camcorder, but I am so sick of getting blamed for every fucking thing on the computer.
I am not allowed to go online at home (as in use msn for other websites other than the homepage) because then, when my dad yells at me for "downloading" music online, or getting attachments from bands' websites with viruses, I have an excuse. Right now, I am at school using the internet, which I will do every morning...
But it gets worse.
Yesterday, I come home for a little while before school to do homework because I had a prelab that I had to type. So I go on the computer... but wait. We don't even fucking have Microsoft Word. My dad deleted it becuase of a "virus" that suppodely I got, WHICH I FUCKING DIDN'T! So I had to type my prelab on our computer from 19-fucking-92 downstairs, and it took me 7234284812 times as long, Because the screen and the whole writing program is weird.
so in conclusion, my dad is a fucking asshole ( i think that is the understatement of the day) and my bday is in 1 month, and I want a laptop so my dad will quite blaming and yelling at me for fucking shit.
oh yeah, check out my icon (guarenteed to make you horny... haha)
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[30 Aug 2004|08:57pm] |
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Do you want to know the truth? The truth about me? I may appear normal, or even optimistic for most of the time. But it's all a mask. Deep inside, I am scared.
I'm scared to live. But mostly I am scared to die. Death is my biggest fear. I want to live my life thuroughly. Enjoy every moment. Do everything possible, visit the world. Fall in love. All before I die.
But I am scared the I will never find love. And the ones I have here to support me, I am scared to love. Scared to show effection. And I don't know why.
I want to learn. I want to go to school and be able to comprehend everything that gets spit at me each and every day. But at the same time, I abosolutely hate school.
Maybe it's more of the people that I hate. I hate high schoolers. I hate gossip. I hate girls. I hate controversy. I bet no one even knows that I base my life on being neutral to avoid fights. Not that I'm afraid to state my opinion, but I respect everyone's thoughts. And I do what I can so no one could ever label me. I am an individualist.
I do not think I am better than anyone (for the majority of the time.. once in a while, I let my ego jump ahead) because the truth is I am not better than anyone. I shouldn't even have friends, not that I have a lot.
and I cherish my friends... not the ones who take me for granted, but the ones who I actually know care about me.
The one thing that confuses me is who I am, and how I can be a better person. But I just don't know. I can't think. I have this gate deep inside my soul, holding in everything that I am. I can't express myself over 70% of the time. I am confused, and I need help. However, with all of this chaos, I am one of the most sane and objective people you will ever meet. Considering, there are people out there with worse problems.
Sometimes I just think about the poor children in other countries. Do you know how many people have died since you read this entry? And with each lost soul, there are victims each day, mourning over their lost ones. But it can get worse. It could be me. (Or you) And I don't even think all of the seats at my funeral would be filled.
With all of this shit constantly running through my head, I somehow find a way to be happy. I laugh at almost anything. I find beauty in the most hideous beings. and that's more than you can say.
Comment if you wish, but sometimes.. silence says more.
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| the problem will stop if you leave that bitch tonight |
[25 Aug 2004|07:45pm] |
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damn.. today was the first day back to school. It almost seemed as if summer never even happened, and I'm just back to that original distaste of walking down the halls with the same old people. Even though, I don't even get to see any of my friends hardly at all. I see Mary, Bri, and Christy, that's it.
I never realized how much I missed all my friends.... (Mary, Lauryn, Bri, Ashley, etc.) It really is true, you are appreciated more once you are gone... or just not always there.
I'd have to say, the worst part of the first day of school is the fact that you can't go out because "it's a school night". and it will always be be a school night until summer comes again. My one night will be my Saturday nights.. and there are NEVER good concerts on Saturday nights. It always either a school night, or Sunday.
P.S. go to Northbeach on Sunday to see Best Defense and The Waiting Game, but don't count on me for a ride
lets just pray that I can make it thru the year with good grades, and everlasting friends... and a boyfriend/ date to homecoming wouldn't hurt
ONE LAST COMMENT! STOP POSTING EVERY LITTLE THING ON LIVE JOURNAL! I AM SICK OF NOT CHECKING ONE DAY AND THEN HAVING TO READ 94832439 ENTRIES! Don't be a livejournal addict... it's quite boring as an audience
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| I never lied when I said that I loved you and that I still do |
[22 Aug 2004|11:42am] |
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last night was extremely fun... but with every positive there is a negative. I woke up with huge welts on my hip bones from that bar at the concert last night. WHAT A GREAT NIGHT! I'll restrain from details, for the upholding of your interest.
speaking of concerts... my mom wants me to go with her, my dad, my aunt, uncle, and cousin to Rivinia tonight to see Peter, Paul, and Mary. HAHAHAHA! oh man.. I don't want to go, but I bet I will end up being forced to go.
I'll puff that magic dragon... haha Mal.
**School starts Wednesday.. still have over 100 pages to go** Who's ready to go back???
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